About two years ago I found out my blood pressure was a little high. I had never had high blood pressure before. It stayed kind of high so my doctor insisted I lose some weight. He asked for ten pounds. I stayed the same weight for months. I dropped the salt as much as possible, but the weight stayed the same. Before I knew it I started to binge. Only once in a while, but nonetheless, it worried me because I had never had that bad habit before.
So two years later my pressure is high and I have been ignoring that fact that I am putting on weight while trying to lose it. Only me... None of my friends have said anything, but I've seen the looks. I can honestly say I've never been so big. I'm getting older and this is getting me nowhere. My health is also making me more worried.
So today is the day I have decided to get it together. Yes, Halloween. Candy day. I was feeling so uncomfortable at work, in clothes that truly didn't fit. I guess I needed that to wake me up. Not the fact that I can't breathe after one flight of stairs from the subway platform to the ground level.... No, not that.
I've had IBS since I was eight years old. As I grew older I realized how fruits and veggies irritated my IBS. No fruits, fruit juice or veggies, cooked or uncooked for years. But my IBS is almost gone and I am now able to eat these healthy gems that will help me to move forward. I've integrated them into my meals to test and retest how my body handles them.
Exercise has never been something I enjoyed. The last time I was going to a gym I was there for about five months, using a trainer, but did not lose one pound. I was hungry all of the time. I don't know what willpower is when it comes to food. I never have. It's always been my emotional crutch. Celebrations, boredom, despair, you name it, food is involved. The saddest part is that I know better. I know how it's supposed to be done, and in a healthy way, and I still do this to myself.
Well, I'm taking a stand. I'm not making any predictions because I am too overwhelmed as it is. But please come back to check on my progress.
Kim
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